lets kick ass!

im not as strong as you see. i still think of my past. i still cant get over it. how did i get myself being in such pain? questions kept running through my mind. and i wish i had the answers to everything. god, please let me stand tall.

screw the emotions. im not going to go all emo now.

still in the state of not believing that i went out with my course-mate (just the two) last month. its just not me. i never done such thing. but it happened. okey maybe its just a movie and dinner. but still im not the person who dates my course-mate.and come to think of it, i realize i wasnt being myself when i was with him. i dont know. maybe i wasnt sure how im suppose to react towards him. i was being "ntahhlaa.. xksahlaaa u nak ape..xksah this..xksah that..". now i felt stupid for being that way. owh shit. can i reverse? can i choose not to go? now i had embarrassed myself. oh fatenah, why you have to do this to yourself?

im still having an eye on that one person. just that one.

he will always be that one guy i will never get. the guy i will continue to like from a far. oh why?