my wedding song

someone stole my wedding song! and i hate that. i hate you. you who stole it. im not that pissed. but im irritated by it. so stop stealing! its a crime. you know how bad i want to play that song for my wedding day. you know that song kills man. you dislike it when i told you bout the song dulu and now you're loving it and making it your fb status. wtf?

keep believing

currently watching grey's anatomy. i can go over and over watching this without boredom. yes. i wish i was meredith grey. or maybe izie stevens. they are near to perfect. but i guess miracles dont happen to people like me to be them.

i blog like a 10 year old. im not a writer. i dont write. but i think a lot. sometimes the anxiety of thinking makes me wants to write. but it crashed away when im right in front of my laptop. the horrible writing is due to the lack of ideas. and passion. the only passion i have now is eating. im cutting list of cravings day by day. and why is that? why do i eat a lot? why am i growing? why am i getting fatter? whats with all this? dont i have better things to do? the answer to the last question, is NO. i have nothing to do. im not searching for part time jobs and am not doing any attachment. i dont know what am i suppose to do. fatenah, can you please do something wise? my brains might not grow big but my imaginations, mind can. or is it just mental masturbation?

lets kick ass!

im not as strong as you see. i still think of my past. i still cant get over it. how did i get myself being in such pain? questions kept running through my mind. and i wish i had the answers to everything. god, please let me stand tall.

screw the emotions. im not going to go all emo now.

still in the state of not believing that i went out with my course-mate (just the two) last month. its just not me. i never done such thing. but it happened. okey maybe its just a movie and dinner. but still im not the person who dates my course-mate.and come to think of it, i realize i wasnt being myself when i was with him. i dont know. maybe i wasnt sure how im suppose to react towards him. i was being "ntahhlaa.. xksahlaaa u nak ape..xksah this..xksah that..". now i felt stupid for being that way. owh shit. can i reverse? can i choose not to go? now i had embarrassed myself. oh fatenah, why you have to do this to yourself?

im still having an eye on that one person. just that one.

he will always be that one guy i will never get. the guy i will continue to like from a far. oh why?

patience is virtue

my hand-phone is testing my patience. maybe it went crazy because i thought of buying a new one. im sorry hand-phone but you serve for me too long and i think i dont need your service anymore and that doesnt mean i dont appreciate you. please just be nice to me for this time being until i get a new one okey. im sorry. urggghh

i know which phone i want and im using my own pocket money to get it i think. i dont know.maybe its time for me to actually appreciate what i have. so the best way is by buying things on my own. oh god, bile la duit nak turun dari langit?

why must it rain everyday? constantly. i dont like rain. especially rainstorms. with lightnings and thunder. urgh. go away rain.

i hear whispers in my mind. please go away. damn

stop the shit

i felt defeated last night when tears finally drop. a simple call makes me fall flat. the person who called me sounded so pissed off since he heard rumors i was talking shit about me and him. and i went wtf? somehow he wasnt pissed off with me since he knows me indeed very well. he was super deeply mad with the other person who is actually spreading the shit which is someone i knew but never spoken too. i never even said hi to her before. but she's telling everyone that i personally had a chat with her. what the hell? not even a simple hi, what makes you think i would even have a conversation with you? bodoh! stop the shit okey! dah la. this is childish and rubbish.

my holidays started great! everyone who know me so well knows how much i love karaoke! so i did went karaoke-d with naddy and maria. luckily naddy and i reached green box first and started karaoke-ing without maria because maria actually stole the mic and remote control for the last 1 and half hours of karaoke session. the rest is history from sungai wang to pavillion and to god knows where. haha i love u two gemoks!

and yesterday Fa, naqib and i went to jengka amik anak kesayangan mama, nabil. owh not to forget the rojak ayam i was craving for since loooong ago in temerloh. finally finally. i can cross rojak ayam from my list of cravings now.

who said i cant cook? i prove you wrong today! i told you i can learn. now i tried, you guys can shut up and stop saying i cant cook okey.

my <3>

on the way to jengka.

while waiting..

after rojak ayam, mee bandung and mee hailam. haha

a beginning of a new chapter

i wasnt sure about moving from livejournal to here. but in the end. i decided to moved. just for no important reasons.

so hows everybody been doing? life been treating u good? my prayers are always with u. if i know you somehow lah kan. okey if you are not doing good, lets jump up and down. run left to right and screaaaaaaaaammmm. feel any better? lets do it once more. jump jump! okey wait. i said jump up and down? how are you suppose to jump down? i dont get it. lets start again. jump jump! run left to right and right to left and sreaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmm. does it work now? any better? haihh. i know you guys are not that stupid to do exactly what i said kan. so mind me for being ridiculous.

now i have a stupid story to tell. but since it is so stupid i dont wish to tell the story. i've change my mind in an instance. haha. i guess you guys are not lucky this time. owh whatever.

cant wait to go to bandung. i know my family and i shoud be busy packing our stuff to move this december but we just need some peace of mind for once in awhile. so yes. bandung is the nearest and cheapest place to go. bandung here i come!!!!!!