one day

someday if i gave up, it's not because i choose to. it's because i tried but failed.

first

started my new year by traveling to Spain with my monkeys! it was awesome! always have the heart for Barcelona. and my dream actually came true when i step foot at NouCamp. Eventhough there is no chance of meeting Fabregas or Messi, i actually got to be where they usually be. you might not understanding the feeling but it actually felt surreal to be there. so i can cross-out Barcelona, Valencia and Madrid on places i want to visit. 

To be honest, Rome is still the best place i visited so far! i fell in love with the city in an instance! there's something about Rome that just captivates me. 

But all of this can't fight the Holy place, Mecca. hopefully, i could go there again. this time i wish to go there with my husband (once i'm married). inshallah

by the way, class starts tomorrow! who would have thought that a month of break is over. time flies! still in disbelief that a month is over. just three months of class. then a month break, final starts! yeah that shit is coming. then i have another exam in August. like i said, time flies. i'll be coming home soon than expected! oh my! i just can't wait to get this done. 

a come back

i've said my goodbye. and now i'm here. my dusty and abandoned blog. the urge to write is always there, in my mind, the action to do it is always zero. this would be the final entry for 2012. or maybe the only entry for 2012. i can't remember the last time i'm here.

before we bid our goodbyes to 2012, lets just be thankful that we fought through it. a whole freaking year. which i felt like it was only months.

it seems like yesterday i was in the movies with Eman when the clock strikes 12 on 1/1/2012.
it seems like yesterday i sat for my first year final exams.
it seems like yesterday Aliff turns one.
it seems like yesterday i went to Rome and Milan with my friends.
it seems like yesterday i came home for my summer break.
it seems like yesterday i went on an impromptu trip to Penang with Eman.
it seems like yesterday for the first time i went to Cameron Highlands.
it seems like yesterday i got my exam results.
it seems like yesterday i went to Krabi with Eman, Ika and her sister.
it seems like yesterday i came home for Hari Raya.
it seems like yesterday i went on vacation with my family at Sepang Palm Tree Resort.
it seems like yesterday i turn 25.
it seems like yesterday i had to come back to Canterbury to start my new term.
Everything seems like yesterday. the memories. the best of it, i kept it in my heart. i treasure it. the bitter part of it, hmm i dont forget them. i just remind myself that rainbows don't appear always. you just got to take a little bumpy ride sometimes.

everyone hopes for a better year. so do i. it is my final year. the finale. the eagerness to complete this masters program is beyond my imagination. it's not that i don't like it here. i love it. it's just that home is always the best place to be. as i would say, it's heaven on earth!

so 2013, i'm waiting for you. make it my best year ever! cheers to that!

oh and 2013, it will be our 3 years together. the person whom i had a crush on when i was 13 and now he is still my crush, just that we have the same feelings. he could be the one that completes me in every way. we'll see. Du'a the best for us! staying strong here!

Ignorance

I know you are ashamed of me. It's either you are ashamed being with me or you are ashamed of the things i do. So i decided to ignore all of it and start believing in whatever feels right. heart speaks but brain decides it all.

a new hello

it's 2012. yes believe it. i'm not sure if i have ever mention about pursuing my dreams or furthering my studies. so here, now, this instance, i'm blogging all the way from England. Not here, for a holiday. I'm here for a chance to grab my Masters in Actuarial Science. Yes. I pursue one of my lifetime dreams. It only have been 5months and still, i cant believe that i'm here. i know i'm lucky and thankful that i had been given scholarships since the first day i step foot in university. I'm blessed.

So here is my first entry for this journey. and wish me luck.

Never stop dreaming! You never know what might be install for you. xx

aaaaa finally

atlast i remembered my password. now i just have to decide whether to deactivate this blog or leave it just the way it is. due to certain reasons have caused me to make such decisions. huge embarassment when you wrote about that someone and that someone happens to read it. malu gile nak mati! hopefully he stops reading this so that once in awhile i could come back and write eventhough i had said my goodbye.

oh i think i should welcome myself. welcomeeee baaackkk myselff. sounds pathetic.

anyways, with things that been going through and life being in its low point i got no idea what to write. eh wait! did i mention i am done with my degree??? hell yeaahh done with it! what's next? haa wait and see.

ps: i wish i am different but im not :(

aaaaa finally